This is part of a month long series on depression...
The strangest post-hospital activity that made me happy - well, not strange if you know me - but even I was surprised at the intensity of the activity - was writing lists. I told Dr. Bashara that I did that, and that it was scary to see everything that had been in my head.
I am sure he wondered what bizarre things were in my head and now on paper.
These are my favorite notebooks! They had them at Target, but I have not been able to find them there for a long time.
But do you know what? It was the mundane things I wrote. The grocery lists, the books I want to read, the daily schedules, the music I like. I even wrote lists of my lists.
This is the notebook I used the most. When I finished the last page of the first one, I found the second one in my collection at work! How cool is that? I am hoping Dr. Byers has more!
"Wow Mom," Amanda said as she watched me spread out ALL the Sharpies and all the notebooks and write for hours. Then she sat down to help me write, check off and arrange all the lists. I cannot believe how happy that made me. It was good to feel like me again. It has been at least a couple of years since I have felt like me.
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Post from one year ago today...
September 14, 2016
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Next month is a happier topic. I will post all of the pictures you send.
